I am trying to remind myself that downtime is important, too.
Sometimes I get so focussed on showing up to write that I start feeling what I did at the end of my bachelor’s degree: a freaked out need for freedom.
In university, the only true free time was during the break between semesters. Otherwise there was always something you should be doing: reading, writing, studying, completing a project and on and on.
Sometimes I get to feeling that way about writing.
That I should be writing before anything else. Most of the time I encourage this feeling. It helps to get me in front of the computer and working my heart out.
But there are times when that intensity backfires, when it becomes a burden. And that’s when I need to give myself permission to relax. That would be the trick of it. Honestly giving myself permission to “waste time”. (Don’t I realize I could be writing?)
Tonight, I am enjoying some downtime. Or trying to.